Winging It.

I honestly don’t know what I’m doing. I started blogging a few years ago but have never been consistent. The blogging world is complicated but therapeutic. I honestly don’t know what made me purchase my own domain. I suppose it was to give myself the push I needed to do what I feel passionate about. That is using my voice, owning my story and my personal struggles in life in order to help/inspire others to do the same. Let them know whatever hardships they are experiencing will pass and everything will be Ok. That is what I tell myself everyday. You got this. Even on those days when I know I don’t feel like that.

So, here I am. A new wannabe professional blogger who has no clue what she is doing. It has taken me well over two weeks to make my page look halfway decent. My first ever professional photoshoot didn’t turn out as terrible as I expected. Thank goodness for friends (Bruce Bishop) that really do know what they are doing and guide you through the awkward process. I keep repeating to myself, “You got this ” but the truth is I’m scared.

I’m getting ready to share my deep, dark and tragic pain. Talk about my struggle living with mental illness. Tell my readers about my horrible coping skills and think to myself “What the fuck was I thinking “. I can’t even rationalize half the crazy shit I’ve put myself through. How I managed to change all of those things in a positive way after years of therapy. Admitting that I still have a long way to go.

I’ve decided that it’s worth the risk. Sharing myself with the universe even though I don’t know what I’m getting myself into. Why not? I’ve been winging it all my life and I’m still here. What do I really have to lose. The only thing I really want is to inspire others. Hopefully, I can accomplish that!

Remember your voice matters, you are worthy, you are loved and you can make a difference. Thank You for taking the time to read this post.

Jeni B

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